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i have a very. all or nothing mindset that can "worsen" or intensify from time to to time, leading me to get paranoid or very pessimistic/suspicious of people around me, and most likely will be hostile and act out even if we're friends. adding on, i struggle with feeling emotions in general; i am often "emotionless" or numb and get irritated easily, leading me to ti be rude. the intensity of this can vary and whenever it does happen, i kindly ask you be patient and respect boundaries as dms and pings become 10x more stressful than they'd usually be. im trying my best out here!!!;;:i am unable to access mental help as of now, and am unmedicated

i suspect that i have adhd and other disorders caused by trauma and/or negative past experiences. i ask you to be patient with me as i may come off as rude or passive aggressive, when i don't mean to. please do not take this personally, as i likely have nothing against you. i dont have any triggers, so dont worry about upsetting me. i also tend to get paranoid and anxious easily, so keep that in mind when interacting. i also make kys/kms and sex jokes, the prior mostly to Cope so keep that in mind.

i am an extrovert, i love making new friends and meeting new people. that being said, i get overwhelmed/exhausted by dms really easily and tend to get anxious over what seems like nothing. if we have been conversing and i ignore your messages, please do not assume i dislike you!! im not someone who likes to discriminate other people, at all. i love interacting with people who have different perspectives from me. should i be uncomfortable, i would make it clear/simply not reply or engage in conversation.

im alexander, but i also go by rune and a few other aliases. i mainly use they/ve, but i dont mind if close friends refer to me using she/her, he/him or other neopronouns on me (like xe/xem or ze/zir). im a selftaught artist/animator and also a Huge lizard enthusiast!!!! more info above, click sea slug png